Everything starts from somewhere, whether they start from an ending or something inspires you to start a new thing.
2008 has been an interesting year, I saw friendships end, and others begin. I saw relationships fail, and saw others grow into a new phase. I even bought 2 Mac’s and designed a new site to update every so often. (:P) It definitely hasn’t been the easiest of years, but it certainly has been one where I saw myself with a need to grow more. I thought I was ready for so much more, but I only saw that I was regressing into someone I never wanted to be. Maybe 2009 will be different, maybe in 2009 I’ll be on the path of the person I want to be, nee, need to be.
A stronger, wiser man. Not the scared, unsure boy I feel like I am.
Some people never really change, they’re the same who they were years ago. People don’t normally like change, they get scared when they see the prospect of change. I try not to be scared at it, I try to embrace it, we need to evolve. It was pointed out to me recently where I fail to meet standards. At work and at my personal life. Nothing can kick you in the pants more than knowing that even though you tried your best, there is something there that can get your ass kicked. So, you make a list, you figure out what you need to work on and make yourself better. If you let it kick your ass enough, you’re just gonna regress into someone you don’t wanna be.
I have my list.
I’ll post about it here and there. I don’t like doing it for the attention, and I don’t like getting sympathy from others. Maybe someone, somewhere will take what I read to heart and they get inspired. I remember at the beginning of 2007 I set it as a goal for myself to help inspire others, and make a little change. I don’t know where I lost the path, but I’d like get back on it. It’s a nice goal, an ambitious goal. To inspire others means you have to work above and beyond the usual and make it seem like it’s fun and or easy. To make a change though, even a little bit, requires a lot of effort. I hope I can stay on track with it, I like the person who I was becoming, before my issues of 2008 came.
Anyways, enough of that personal gibberish.
I hope to write more about my personal musings on this site, I’m gonna concentrate on my main interests: Photography, Automotive (including racing 
) and Technology. I’ll write about my opinions, reviews, and general impressions of what ever it is I’m writing about (I think I just used 3 of the same adjectives in the same sentence). Maybe someone will read it, maybe someone wont. Eh, either way. I do it, because I’d like to do it and I’m a writer, and writing is in my blood. What I write may not make much sense, and my humor may seem overly dry, and well, British, or just stupid. You’ll get used to it, everyone does eventually. But this is what I wanna do some day, if I ever get out of the Air Force, so I gotta start somewhere.
Why not here?
