This will be a short one, turned into a long one tomorrow.
If you happened to see my Twitter update today (If you are in my life in any way, shape, or form, I’m guaranteed to be there by your side if you need help. Yes, even *you*.), then you may know where this is going. One thing I’ve tried to do over time is be there for my friends, regardless of who they are, where they are, and what our current relationship is.
I do this not just because I love my friends, because I have been in a place where I felt I had no one to talk too even though I had/have some of the best friends in the world. It’s hell to feel like that, especially since I know my friends would listen to anything I had to say, especially if I was in any sort of strife.
If I can help any of my friends, former friends, former lovers, in any way, shape or form, I’d do it. That’s just how I am, that’s how I want to be. If I can help, I’ll help. Life is too short to carry grudges, be angry, and hate.
This will be expanded upon Tuesday, my day off; and I’m thinking of posting one of my internal monologues. Could be an interesting night.
Tuesday Night.
I try to not be so angry, and I have come a long way, and one thing I have learned from controlling my anger is that I can control how I feel. It’s easy to let yourself get carried away by the never ending moment, but sooner or later you’re gonna come out of it. You’ll either come out not so bad or you’ll crash. I know I’ve crashed enough in my life and that feeling. It’s one of the worst feelings you’ll ever feel.
I try to keep things in perspective for my friends, I don’t like them to repeat what I have done and I’ll try everything in my power to keep them from crashing like I used too. It can be hard for some to take my advice since I have a strict, “Do as I say, not as I do” policy since I tend to be a bit of a hypocrite. (But that’s another blog for another day)
If my friends ever end up in a situation, where it might not be the best for them. I’ll help them, even if it’s something I don’t particularly agree with. I’ll voice my opinion on it, but if they till insist on doing it, then I’ll help them. I say this, because one of my friends have recently told me their displeasure with a situation that has aroused with me. While they don’t agree with what I would like to do, they are still gonna support me and help me out if it should fail. They do this, because they know in the same situation I would do the same thing to them.
My friends are a unique batch of people, and I try to learn as much as I can from them. I try and adapt what I learn so some day if they need me, I can go back to them with what I learned and help them out. It may seem like a lot of work, but it really isn’t. During my off time I tend to let my mind grow on these and have arguments with myself, like a social debate and I modify what I learn and go from there. Sometimes I’ll even talk to a different person and see what their view is.
From all this, I’m a constantly changing person. What I want today, I might not want tomorrow. I learn, and adapt, then I dispense. I change to better myself, and to be a better person to help my friends.
If you are in my life in any way, shape, or form, I’m guaranteed to be there by your side if you need help. Yes, even *you*.
It’s true.
